End of my Pro Gaming days in CGS
*UPDATED 12th May*
Firstly, I would like to thank everyone for their endless support since my debut on 2005 WCG. Following that on 2007 CGS, people watched the program and realized how much potential Singapore team have.
I am glad that Singapore has finally made it BIG in the gaming scene because of CGS and my fellow team mates.
Right now, I am being removed from CGS Singapore Sword team. I am no longer a player. Yet I am not fired as our contract has long gone overdue 2~3mths back. I am sad yet I cant cry. There isnt anything I can do besides carrying on with my life without Dead or Alive, CGS and Pro gaming.
Although I regret what I have done due to the fact that my team is still in China playing against the top teams without me. I let them down yet I believed that Phenic deserved it. He deserved the slap that I gave him. The first ever slap I ever gave to anyone in my life.
Although the CGS staff claimed I disgraced my team, everyone else (the team included) has told me what a great job I have done and shown me huge support.
I do know this has caused alot of problems for CGS. Removing me caused them production costs as they had to redo filming and photoshoot. I sincerely apologize to CGS for that.
This whole issue is caused by not just me but everyone else involved in this league. Phenic as a manager failing his role. He did not announced to the other players properly who is our female DOA player. Neither did he try to mediate the worsening situation where everyone hates Perpetiel and him. CGS should have known better that the problem will escalate to even worst problems. Covering points for her has caused immense stress for all the team members.
Everyone in the team was seperated. We werent united… A good way to describe it would be Singapore Sword itself had a Counter-Terrorist, Terrorist and Hostages within it. It is sad but true that we will never be able to win Pan Asia in this kind of condition. I cant even described how crazy it was when we ate seperately, we cant communicate properly, we cant understand what each of us are thinking in their minds. There is so much HATE that it isnt even funny…
Everyone knew I tried my best to help Perpertiel train as “WE did NOT have any choice in this entire matter”. If a proper DOA player was picked, we wouldnt have all this nonsense problems. Phenic just had to choose Love over the team. I cant say he is wrong. Love is important after all. But that caused all of us our career. Yes it affects all of us.
Why does the Singapore Sword players care so much about who is being selected? It is because unlike Region 1 players, ONLY the top 2 teams will get fully paid as a professional gamer in CGS. This caused alot of disturbances within the team itself. In no way did Phenic try to help the team in this matter except helping his fiancee to be part of the team.
We also escalated this issue to CGS. They didnt really care much. After I slapped Phenic, they started saying we were a bunch of troublemakers and stuff like that.
Honestly, we cared about the team, our career as a pro, our pride as a Singaporean.
Because of all this crap, Singapore Sword will have problems in getting salary again… I cant play for CGS anymore. And neither am I willing to spend the time to train new blood after all this had happened. I scouted and trained 3 other females to participate in Singapore drafts. Phenic just took it as nothing compared to his wife. What does this leave us, Singaporeans? I honestly dont know what can be done at this point. But this has defeated my purpose of helping people learn DOA.
Players have known me to be helpful in teaching them how to be better in DOA. Yet, now this has become a chore for me as I dont get paid. And I got screwed by Phenic.
I am really sorry for all the Singaporean gamers that this has happened.
I tried my best. Over at China, I spent my time SMILING at the 2 of them. I even approached them in their rooms to train her. While neglecting my own training, I never even get a single “Thank you” for my efforts late at night. They avoided conversation with me as much as possible. Everytime it ended fast and without much meaning. It is really sad that things cant be solved right up front when both of them have huge pride.
I got into a heated argument with them the day before I got removed from CGS. Phenic just kept pushing away what I am trying to bring across. I tried to make her realize how important it is for her to think and not mash. As she mashed whenever she got up the stage, she got pwned really fast haha. Phenic kept protecting her and saying it will be fine for the next match. I told him that for the past 6 mths the same thing has been repeating what makes him say that it will be fine? Then he just kept saying its fine lol.
True enough the same thing re-enacted happened again against China. So I lost my temper and slapped him for all the past 6 mths. Yes it felt good. I am probably able to play properly for once. But good things never happen for us. I was sent back home straight after that. Not allowed to see anyone and had to stay in another hotel while waiting for my next flight.
This is the first time in 6 mths that I felt relieved. All the political wars going on in our team is finally over for me. I can finally moved on. Of course if it is possible for me to play for CGS again, I would love to. Except under a different manager. Ben, Mark Dolven, Bun, Steven, etc comes to mind LOL. Things might have gone differently if greed and selfishness did not exist in our current team.
There are much more regarding this political wars but I dont think I should go through all those since its over already.
Thank you Liefje, Christine, Shivonne, SPH, Gary, Team Titans, Xtreme, Takumi, Kannina, Black Mamba, Master, Berzerk, Waileng, Ramus, Singapore gaming community, DOA gaming community and many more for all the support and love you guys have given me.
Edit: I was reading around the web… Here are the interesting posts which I find that people should at least read about it.
From Chompr CGS Chicago Chimera pro gamer *link*:
Everyone is saying “GL in your future hope you find something blah blah blah”
You know what, I’m not going to say that. Because I don’t think he should be banned at all.
Slap to the face = permanent ban!?!?!
With everyone trying to legitimize CGS as a ‘real’ sport, then why don’t they treat it like one? In any other sport, waaaay worse things happen and the only consequence is a fine/short suspension.
Ex) NASCAR – occasionally has “fights” (ROFL) which normally means someone gets hit or slapped, and they get FINED.
Ex) NBA – hard fouls around the basket when the defender isn’t going for the ball (flagrant foul) results in suspension and/or fine.
Ex) MLB – Pitcher/hitter dispute results in someone charging the mound and both dugouts empty with some punches thrown. At worst a couple games suspension and/or fine.
These are more established than the CGS obviously, which is perhaps why CGS doesn’t want to take any risks. However if you look at the story behind this, all info leads to the same answer: that the manager of the Singapore Sword wasn’t doing the right things and that Tetra had tried to help his team but was unsuccessful. Everything he said just got brushed under the carpet, so he thought his only other option was to ‘get physical’. YES he crossed the line and should be penalized, but not to this extent (maybe we need to see the slap I guess :S)
Jokes aside, I hope to see you again in the CGS Tetra!!
I can see that Chompr wants to see CGS grow. He wanted the best for CGS and he voiced it out without fear of offending anyone. Nice one Chompr. Having you in CGS is probably one of the luckiest thing for them ^^
From Shivonne my 2nd strongest DOA Female student *link*:
Having all that injustice showing at the Pan Asia champs results.
Who wouldn’t be frustrated?
When a team’s moral is down, its up to the manager to bring up the spirits, no?
That wasn’t happening, Phenic wasn’t around to muster up the team.
What i saw, was Prasad gathering the team, for team talks, boosting their spirits, encouraging the team.
The Singapore manager? I don’t know balls….
Anyway, Singapore lost out.
Hopefully the couple is happy with their decision.
What a disgrace to Singapore.
I have to say that it is sad for Shivonne as she was training since last year for CGS 2008. She wasnt selected because…. Everyone probably know by now. I too am disappointed as she could have represented our country/team just as well as other teams. I didnt know about this blog until today. Her other entries of her training DOA4 with me is so hilarious
From Eunice better known as FHM Gamer Girl *link*:
I often hear claims from mutual friends and people around that Phenic brags that he knows me.
Seriously, I don’t know him as a friend but he probably just know who I am. The first time I knew of his existence was 9-10 years ago, when my classmate was his ex-girlfriend. As a young dick, he has all the traits of an asshole – according to my friend.
As for me, all I know is that he is a person who emailed or messaged me a few times over the span of 2001-2007 for things that he wanted to benefit from me. I never have a good impression of his time-wasting requests. To me, he’s always a person behind an email, webpage, or message. Perhaps I’ve met him in real life before, but I don’t remember, I don’t give a shit and I think he deserved the slap for all that.
Kinda surprised Eunice knows Phenic. Especially when it happened really long ago -_-;
From Caveman_ *link*:
Petition: New General Manager
Someone posted a petition for Sword. I wouldnt say this is to petition to remove the manager or put me back in place. But rather to help Singapore Sword achieve back their previous glory and passion in the professional gaming career line.
From SynergyPandemic Singapore Counterstrike Source player *link*:
The managers job is hardest to do. As we can clearly see the best franchises in CGS are all managed by driven and passionate individuals like Mark Dolven, BSL and Brian Flander. A clueless Avram Grant standing at the sidelines won’t win you titles unless you have players of the class and resources of Chelsea. It is widely reported that sword won the previous asian championships, partly because of the vocal backing of Mr Steven Yong, Anfield makes a big difference for Liverpool on european nights.
I totally agree with what he has mentioned. A mood builder is always important for any successful teams
From Linex UK DOA4 player *link*:
YOU SOUND LIKE A MORON!
JUST LOOK WHAT YOU ARE TYPING!
Tyson bit an EAR OFF!
And he was allowed to BOX!
TETRA just slapped a no body!
Hell TETRA was more famous then that dude in the first place, before all this curruption!
He is just so crazy with his posts that I just had to link it
Last note, as many has probably mentioned this is just 1 side of the story. I posted this solely because I wanted people who supported me to know why I left CGS. It is totally up to individual whether they want to support the current Singapore Sword team, petition away the current manager, feel sorry for me, etc.
But do take note that CGS used to pay for my salary. They have done great things and they will continue to bring competitive gaming entertainment to the mass market out there. Without CGS I would not have become a Pro gamer in the first place. For that I thank them for their great efforts!
*UPDATED 11th May*
CNA article *link*
Although its just a rumor, disbanding the team over a personal incident is just so wrong imo…
Why does the team have to pay for mistakes such as this? Granted that things like this could have been avoided by proper management skills and communication skills within the team. It is just too serious to disband an entire team for this.
Future is more important than the past. People like Chompr are facing the future and not just the past. History are for there for people to learn from. CGS is there to grow and not to gripe over how to clean the mistakes off.
If things keep happening to various teams, are teams going to be just disbanded one after another just for the one time “good look image” for CGS? CGS should try to grow the league even more such that everyone will be able to acknowledge that the league is a solid league. A solid league which can handle ANY problems that they faced. A league that can rival MLB, NBA, etc. Not just a “clean” outlook league.
It is afterall a rumor. Maybe its not a rumor anymore. I tried to visit http://www.singaporesword.com it auto redirected me back to http://www.thecgs.com.
Don’t anyone find it weird that in the article by CNA.
“One eyewitness said Mr Chia appeared agitated after losing a series of games to a Chinese player. After losing another match to the same player on May 1, he threw away his controller and stormed off the stage.”
Yet, there is no word that the manager did anything to help his player(me). Isn’t a manager suppose to help support the players? Or is the manager suppose to stand there looking good and watch the show?
I dont even know why I am updating this. Maybe because I just felt that it is unfair that 1 entire team has to pay for mistakes such as this.
Just a joke but, I thought of this. Erm, what happens when a manager can pick anyone he wants without a guideline? He picks his father, his mother, his grandfather, his grandmother, his wife, his mistress, his brother, his cousin, his son, his daughter. So yap there you go incest team of 10 players
Updated 12th May
Straits Times Article *link*
Mr Chia was suspended indefinitely from the CGS, but Mr Reif said: ‘He can ask for reinstatement in the future and we will consider his case.’
Another article from local newspapers. I am only interested in this line. The other quotes are erm… laughable especially for those who know what has really happened. Looks like I can appeal for reinstatement but yet I dont know if I should. Based on all the nonsense that came up since last year. I came up with these conclusions…
#1 I will only play if people need me inside their team.
#2 I hate dictatorship. If I am going to be under someone who explicitly dictates and yet doesnt even care for his players. I swear I rather stay up in the mountains for the rest of my life. Life is about working together for a better future NOT dictating what benefits you the most.
#3 I am going to be paid for my efforts. In no way am I going to ever spend my OWN money and time to practice(1500$ spent to go Japan 3 weeks ago) if I am going to get screwed in the end.
#4 I only started playing games because I ENJOY games. It just happened that I am better than the rest. If I am going to be unhappy for the rest of the time playing in an unhappy team, I might as well go disneyland like “some couple” in LA(You know who, I dont have to say).
Btw, reporter making wrong headlines again. I cant be sacked when I am not contracted/paid in the first place. I am dismissed, suspended, banned, etc -_-;